Maybe the universe and I just don’t get along. Maybe I’m not supposed to find someone to love, in that romantic, Julia Roberts movie type of way. Maybe just loving my job and my friends and family and school is all that’s in the cards for me. I’ve spent alot of time not trying, and now that I am actively trying, I realize that for me, it makes no difference. I don’t get excited… Nothing happens. I get really excited… Nothing happens. I’m exhausted. What’s worse is that I still have about two months left of this stupid membership, so I really can’t officially give up until then. The thought of never finding someone scares the crap out of me. Almost as much as the thought of settling with someone, just so I’m not alone. I know I can’t do that, but what if that’s my only option?