Maybe the universe and I just don’t get along. Maybe I’m not supposed to find someone to love, in that romantic, Julia Roberts movie type of way. Maybe just loving my job and my friends and family and school is all that’s in the cards for me. I’ve spent alot of time not trying, and now that I am actively trying, I realize that for me, it makes no difference. I don’t get excited… Nothing happens. I get really excited… Nothing happens. I’m exhausted. What’s worse is that I still have about two months left of this stupid membership, so I really can’t officially give up until then. The thought of never finding someone scares the crap out of me. Almost as much as the thought of settling with someone, just so I’m not alone. I know I can’t do that, but what if that’s my only option?
Trippin’
Sitting on a train, headed for Boston. Well, I’m actually getting off in Rhode Island, but Boston just sounds fancier. I love the train. You see the most interesting people on public transportation. More later!
New
So I’ve decided to make a change. I have been spending so much time worrying and stressing about dating, and relationships, and it’s really just gotten annoying. I barely have time for myself as it is, and I just keep getting set up with a- holes. All of this has led me to the decision to take a year off from dating. My eharmony subscription is up at the end of this month, and then that is it. I’m just going to focus on myself, and my family and friends. I just feel like that’s the right move for me right now. I can’t really explain why. So, until next time..
